float away

Short of breath, short of cash,
No way out, plans dashed,
Grey clouds suffocating,
Thick humid air, rain starts,
Brings no relief, no respite.
Breathe slowly, stomach churns,
catch my breath, lungs burn,
Shoulders hunch and head hangs,
Deflated physically, literally,
Caught in a trap, no escape.
Slip back into a drunken haze,
Escape the real, the everyday,
Float away on my dreams,
Far away from responsibility,
Far away from my reality.
Waiting for deliverance, somehow,
By whom, from what, from now,
Bound and tied, clawing hopelessly,
Some way, somebody, some thing,
Some such something, break free.
Why the hell, what the hell, how the hell,
Binding legalese, want to scream, to yell,
Bound by money and fate, trapped by,
Ruled by, addled by comfort and tastes,
Ridiculed and prodded by the fickle fates.
Crawling out of my skin, screaming,
Wishing for relief, know I’m dreaming,
No energy, anger dispelled, fearfulness,
Unchained and unfettered, takes over,
Why must it be, how will it end?